The following is my short essay on my sun sign, Sagittarius, that I submitted for a chance to get a scholarship to Aeolian Heart’s astrology course Discovery. I am proud to say that I landed one of the coveted scholarship spots and am looking forward to starting the course!
This scholarship opportunity and topic came up for me at the same time as a series of posts on social media regarding Sagittarius that, to be blunt, pissed me off. As a believer in signs, synchronicity, and guides – I have no delusions, this happened for a reason.
Most of my life, I haven’t related well to my sun sign. I blamed it on being born on the cusp of Capricorn, on my Taurus moon, or on how as we get older we tend to take on more traits of our rising sign (Gemini in my case). The fact is, I simply didn’t fit some of the stereotypes of Sagittarius portrayed in pop-astrology and, those that I did fit, often initially showed up in the shadow parts of my psyche.
The most common descriptions of Sagittarius I’ve read is regarding our physicality and romantic partnerships. This makes sense in pop-astrology as these are two areas people focus on the most – how we look and who we’re in bed with. The problem is, other than being fuller in the hips and thighs, I don’t exactly follow a lot of the Sagittarius traits. I’m not an athlete (I hate sports) and my short, curvy physique is far from the tall, muscular builds so many astrologers try and claim I should carry. In fact, the only place I’ve read about Sagittarius gaining weight is that it happens when we’ve aged and do less of our athletic work – I’ve been one of the fat kids since I can remember. I’ve also read I am supposed to have thick hair, an open smile/face, and that I am graceful. None of these things are true.
When it comes to relationships, Sagittarians are often portrayed as being incapable of commitment, incompatible with gentler signs, and unable to express interest in anything that is unrelated to them and their goals. While I agree with our obsessive nature and tendencies to jump from project to project head first, I don’t believe this to be related to our hearts.
I often read about how I am incompatible with my Piscean partner. I can see how this might be with my fiery, get-it-done personality versus his dreamy procrastination. However, after ten years of commitment and helping him in his goals of becoming both a computer tech and a wood carver, I can’t possibly imagine judging our relationship as anything but compatible, balanced, and built to last.
The part about Sagittarius being dominant and the varying levels of intimacy between Sag and Pisces has proven to be true. At first I didn’t want to admit to it. It wasn’t until after a lot of emotional and sexual exploring with my partner that we were able to figure out how to ride those waves between fire and water. I think the misunderstanding in pop culture regarding Sagittarius and Pisces is from the concept that commitment and trust are linked to monogamy and vanilla lifestyle (which has proven to not be a necessary connection with us and other “incompatible” partners we know).
The one area I’ve always loved that is associated with Sagittarius is our near obsession with religion and philosophy. Sadly, this trait was so often portrayed to me as being part of two extremes: fanatic evangelical of any religion we choose or flaky, starry-eyed spiritualist who can barely hold a conversation. In the place of choosing between being part of a cult or the real-world version of Firenze, the sighing centaur from Harry Potter, I chose to opt out. I simply didn’t identify with this form of spirituality.
Much like with other aspects of Sagittarius, I was better able to understand this train by looking at it in a different way. Our culture so often associates religion and philosophy with old men mumbling over scrolls and tomes in a patriarchal, droning boy’s club. I found my love for philosophy, religion, and spirituality flourished instead in the feminine aspects of turning inward in darkness, seeking answers of life and rebirth by looking at the natural order of birth and death, and seeking the truth in areas that were socially unacceptable (though this could be more my Pluto in House 6 talking).
Yes, I love old books on religion and studying various beliefs and practices but my enthusiasm is far more vibrant than the mustiness of cathedrals. My discussions on philosophy tend to be more breathless and excitable than lecturing professors in tweed. I might look at the stars like Firenze but I do so with my root chakra grounded and one eye on how I intend to use the information I learn.
While it took time for me to embrace my fiery Sagittarian personality, I understand that this is simply part of the the very Sagittarius goal of finding balance. The centaur’s desire to balance primal and spiritual and the archer’s balance between the pull and the release. In my case, the balance of the cultural, surface understanding and the deeper meanings behind my sun sign. I might take issue with some of the shallower pools of astrological detail but, like a Sag, my questioning mind and primal instincts both carry me deeper.